Just Breathe…

I’ve had a pretty bad month this March.  Last week I discovered that my poor Marley had a tumor – he has since had this removed and I can only pray that it hasn’t already spread.  I also found out that God made my knees on a Friday.  During my 16-mile run in early March, my knee decided to give out and was excruciating (and has been ever since).  I am yet to get a diagnosis for this and think I am on the 8th diagnosis which is not only frustrating as it is disappointing. Next week I have a scan to find out what’s going on, once and for all….

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Since the beginning of March (apart from a couple of short runs), I have not been able to carry out any long runs.  I am absolutely gutted at the thought that I may not be on the start line for London next month and the longer time goes on, the more unlikely this prospect is.  Needless to say, my mental health has taken a bit of a battering.  I’ve been keeping a low profile from social media as this is doing nothing for my anxiety.  On the positive side, I have raised a whopping £1600 for the Rowan’s Hospice which they are extremely grateful for.

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Sometimes its good to reminded that we can’t control everything. Our society promotes the ability to have it all and to do it all, if you can’t, you’re a failure. You’re not, its ok not to be ok. Its okay to let friends know that you’re not in a great place.

I have been filling my time with Marley cuddles, and lots of Cross training.  Yoga has also helped, to enable me to just BREATHE…. And mostly, I’m trying to be kind to myself.

Until next time…

Kezza x

Self Love

‘But what are you doing for YOU Kerry?’ This was the burning question my PT asked me not so long ago..  The answer was probably absolutely nothing.  I was caught in a working 40 hours per week, socialising, marathon training, leading at club, organising a 5K for charity and strength training at the gym.  I work in HR and I’ve got to be brutally honest, I was a bit ‘peopled out’.

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Sometimes you burn out before its too late and I had lost a bit of my spark.  I was just mentally and physically exhausted. I can’t remember the last time I sat on my sofa and just did nothing and relaxed.

It’s essential at times to remember that we all have choices and it’s OK to be selfish sometimes.  I try to lead running groups at club at least once a month.  This month, I’ve just not been able to manage it. Do I feel guilty – absolutely.   It’s so easy to feel the tug of war on expectations, challenges, commitments, technology, family, friends and work. But do you need it all to just STOP for a moment?

Dr Seuss summed it up beautifully: “How did it get so late so soon?” he wrote ” It’s night before it’s afternoon. December is here before it’s June. My goodness how the time has flewn. How did it get so late so soon?”

This Friday night, I have a date, with myself. I’m going to watch a good film, have a bubble bath, light some candles and incense, turn off all social media and just RELAX.  When was the last time you did that?

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I’ve thought about how I can slow my pace down whilst juggling all these balls in the air and from next week, I’m going to attempt the following;

  1. Breathe – There are a variety of breathing techniques that can help you slow down and enjoy your life. Just by breathing in your nose, hold and breathing out of your mouth
  2. Marley cuddles – There’s a reason why my dog is my best friend. Marley brings me so much joy to my life as well as unconditional love and companionship.

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3.  Just ‘be there’ – being in the present. Having gratitude, listening, being  appreciative    – this can be achieved by yoga, and meditation.

4. Less is more – Spring clean anyone?

5.  Drive Slower – I constantly race from A to B and need to slow down and become less  frustrated with other drivers. We are all guilty of it.

6.  Saying ‘No’ – sometimes having more time for you means saying no from time to time.

What do you do to relax? How do you know when you just need a ‘time out?’

May your miles be long , your weekend relaxing and your injuries few.

Kezza x