I’ve had a pretty bad month this March. Last week I discovered that my poor Marley had a tumor – he has since had this removed and I can only pray that it hasn’t already spread. I also found out that God made my knees on a Friday. During my 16-mile run in early March, my knee decided to give out and was excruciating (and has been ever since). I am yet to get a diagnosis for this and think I am on the 8th diagnosis which is not only frustrating as it is disappointing. Next week I have a scan to find out what’s going on, once and for all….
Since the beginning of March (apart from a couple of short runs), I have not been able to carry out any long runs. I am absolutely gutted at the thought that I may not be on the start line for London next month and the longer time goes on, the more unlikely this prospect is. Needless to say, my mental health has taken a bit of a battering. I’ve been keeping a low profile from social media as this is doing nothing for my anxiety. On the positive side, I have raised a whopping £1600 for the Rowan’s Hospice which they are extremely grateful for.
Sometimes its good to reminded that we can’t control everything. Our society promotes the ability to have it all and to do it all, if you can’t, you’re a failure. You’re not, its ok not to be ok. Its okay to let friends know that you’re not in a great place.
I have been filling my time with Marley cuddles, and lots of Cross training. Yoga has also helped, to enable me to just BREATHE…. And mostly, I’m trying to be kind to myself.
Until next time…